Saturday 22 February 2014

Life Sucks

Life has been pretty hectic recently - well what's new??

Monkey had a bad head injury while playing rugby in the middle of December at school - this resulted in him being admitted to hospital overnight with talk at the start of him being transferred to the local neurological centre if things didn't improve - being a nurse in A&E and listening to what they weren't saying was scary. Luckily, he was much better the following day, but we are 2 and a half months down the road and he still gets headaches and takes analgesia each day.

I resigned from the role of District commissioner - I was actually very disappointed by my County Commissioner's reply to my resignation. The two Guide companies which initiated  my resignation are still being allowed to run in a way which is not appropriate but I will say that after the Treasurer from the Scout and Guide Hut rang County HQ and made the situation very clear from his point of view and the fact that the rent for the current year (£1000) for the two units has still not been paid and that there has been no effort by them to pay the £1800 still owed from previous years in a half hour conversation with them, things have finally moved forward. The two leaders have been given ultimatums which should have been completed by this coming Monday. Although I don't have the right to know what is going on, the person who is going to take on the challenge of being DC had stated that she would not take on the role unless the Guide units have been sorted, is keen to keep me up to date, so hopefully I will know what has happened - I will be honest, it's killing me not knowing!!

Work has been hard - so much to do, not enough hours in the day to do it all, humiliation by a consultant via a global email (mind you my boss was great and soon slapped them down!!), a new job description which has me banded to a higher grade but it just reflects everything I am currently doing.

Last week, I was in Edinburgh studying haemophilia - all part of my new job description - and had my phone stolen from my bag while waiting at the bus stop. I have never felt so cut off from things before - Monkey is in Italy skiing with the Army and it was the only contact number they had for me if anything happened! Things were soon sorted, but I don't want to go back there in a hurry I can tell you!

We have Pack Holiday planned for 3 weeks time - I'm not prepared at all. I can't seem to get my head around anything outside of work at the moment and things will only get worse as I need to complete my independent nurse prescribers course which I have been told will take over my life completely for 6 months - I am worried.

I am the only leader who attends every week - the others attend every other week at the most but then don't turn up until after the meeting time starts so often leaving me with just the girls and the young leaders, which is not good from a safe guarding point of view.

I feel that I don't have a handle on anything at the moment and that I am going to loose the plot at some point and that may be very soon the way things are going!

Good things have happened too though - my best friend and I have reconnected recently, although she has shocked me more than ever with some of her antics, but there's nothing new in that! We have met up for afternoon tea a couple of times and now have a fixed date once a month to do it which will give me some "me" time.

I'm also meeting up with my friends from Centenary Camp in 2010. We have all met up quite a bit in the past 12 months but since we left Leeds in 2010, we have never all been together at the same time. So at the beginning of April all of us will be meeting up and staying together in Leeds. That is something I am really looking forward to it.

I'm sure things will sort themselves out and get better - they always do. I just wish I could miss out the crap bit once in a while and just have a good journey instead :)